Legally 21 on 060608

“21 NA AKO!” yeah, yeah.  Tomorrow i will be turning 21. Fully dalagita na me, but by age, not by looks and mind. still, im a baby, ” baby bubuot” or “baby damulag”. People didn’t see me as a 20 years old person but rather a high school kid, around fifteen or sixteen years old. Maybe that’s why i cant get a nice guy with the same my age or older than me. I’m always trapped in a situation where high school guys luring around me. “I JUST DON’T GET IT!” I don’t want to be accuse of child abuse or child molestation. DUH! that’s is insane. why would i hook up with a guy younger than me, you tell me.

Anyways, last time my dad asked me where would i go on my birthday. i gave him my options. so, i came up with…

• GO TO A STRIP CLUB! yepeee! my dad was just cracking out when he heard it.  he even asked me if i will be one of the people who will put money on the strippers briefs. I said to him, “i won’t be the one who will put the money, but i will be the one who will strip the cloths they have on them”. that time, when i spoke to my dad, i was literally serious. 

• TOUR IN EUROPE. i really want to go out the country. i really want to go to the Philippines but then the air-fair is too expensive and the money you’ll spend is worth it. seen i went already in Argentina by my self last 3 years ago, i was looking for the experience where no one is following you and no one is telling you where to go. i better drag my sister with me and let her experience the  feeling of “freedom to explore”.

• BOOK AN OVERNIGHT STAY IN A HOTEL IN MANHATTAN, ALONE. i really want to be alone, away from home when ever i have my birthday. if i can’t escape the country i rather be in a place where i could enjoy myself, ALONE. every time i am bored i always go to Time Square. just strolling on the busy street, watching the tourist, their expression, the excitement. it is really a relief seeing them happy and satisfied on things they saw. sometimes i go watch Broadways, go watch movies. man, i really have fun in Manhattan all alone. if i would have someone with my it should be my sister.  both of us are inseparable. 

• ESCAPE TO CONNECTICUT. my sister and i plan to go to Connecticut. take the train in grand central and head straight to CT. we don’t know where we exactly are going. but the more innocent we are in a place, the more excitement we will have. ”explore, explore…”

By the time i step into my world of adolescence. little by little i will gain my freedom. freedom to go where i want to go, freedom to do what i want to do, and own what i want to own. I’m a good daughter so, daddy don’t worry about me. i will take good care of myself as an adult. just let me explore this harsh world and let me fight my battle of responsibility. let me have my way for now, and if i can’t handle the pressure your eldest will still come to you and ask your help. coz right now, i want to learn from my mistakes, and i want to solve it on my expenses. and mom, i know we haven seen each other for almost 6 years. “i am already a lady, a grown up lady”. the last time you saw me, i was just 16 years old.  now im 21, the stubborn daughter you always have is still a stubborn one. don’t worry i am still me. the ice, that you nurture and molded is still the adult ice. thanks mom for making me a good daughter and a good person. i really owe you everything that i am and everything that i became.

WELCOME 21!

What is your japanese name?

I got this from sombody’s blog,  Sai ying’s diary , and i just want to share with everyone. It’s cool that we could translate our own names into japanese.

For the instructions, add your name on the list and simply spell out your name using the given Japanese letter- translations below. Tag six of your friends and inform them of the tag. Have fun.

TRANSLATION:

A - ka        G - ji        M - rin         S - ari        Y - fu

B - tu         H - ri        N - to         T - chi        Z - zi

C - mi        I - ki         O - mo       U - do

D - te        J - zu        P - no          V - ru

E - ku       K - me       Q - ke         W - mei

F - lu        L - ta         R - shi         X - na

 

1. ice- kimiku, sounds very japanese.

 

my wanteds: Ate jen, Kuya Maldito, DaLe, Ate Banana, Kuya Azarel, & Ate Kengkay.

gotta check this out! (video clips)

I got some video clip from friends and i think instead of sending it to my other friends via email, i rather post these in my blog to share to everyone.

The links:

• You & Me Between The Sheet – This is quite good. if you feel it then you will fell to it.
• What Religion Is Your Bra? — i didn’t know after seeing this clip that there are 4 types of bra aside from the cup size and the thorasic cercumfirence size.
• HOT WET T-Shirt -you’ll see the hotness!
• One BOOB Too Many — what happen to the excesse one?
• Shocking Wedding Dance– This must see. nice beggining and nice ending.
• Ass Or Elbow?– Do you know your as from your elbow? Try this out.
• My Husband, The A-Hole– watch out for the “knock, knock”.

pretty much it!

The Good and Evil Sisters

two sister’s. one is good and one is evil.

the one who is good has a ”angelique” theme- blue and white that links with clouds and the sky.

the evil one is “punk-ish” theme- black and red which replresents the fire and the darkness.

 

Making a duet.

It was last night when things went wrong but I’m glad it did. My sister was in my room and she sang along with the song that I played.

The first time i got my guitar, my sister cannot stand  and understand the songs that i am playing but then here she is now, sang the song with feelings, with matching closed eyes. Four months already passed by since I’ve been practicing the guitar that I bought to myself last December, as a christmas gift, of course. It has been a while since I had learned to play it yet on and off, but when i got my guitar, i had practice it religiously. I mean, not a day i haven’t held that thing. Everyday, my tiny fingers are all sored, and thick skin, callous, is visible on its tip. “poor tiny ones, it must have been hard for this itty-bitty fingers pressing these six strings, and reaching those far away frets”.

Anyways, as i was typing,  she was singing while google-ing in my laptop. then all of a sudden alot of ”what if’s” just pops out from her mouth. you know what she said..

 

what if…

• we sing as a duet.
• we record the song that we are playingand singing.
• we record a video and post it in YouTube.
• we will practice more: me, in guitar and her in piano.

After hearing all those stuff, I was like. “do you mean it?” squinting my eyes, then she only answered me, “damn yeah”.

 well, now i am pushed to practice more and play more guitar. i just felt pity in on my fingers. they don’t look like a girls finger tips anymore. more like a guy. just the FINGER TIPS, OK! NOT THE WHOLE HANDS, JUST FINGER, PHALANGES OR DIGITALIS.

We are now looking for a cool songs that we could play together. We found some like, Grow Old With You by Adam Sandler, taken from the movie ”The Wedding Singer”, and Love by Matt White. Those are the songs with cool melodies which we are practicing right now. I hope things will come smoothly. 

Am I bad?

My eyes are hurt, and it is so puffy. It is my dad’s fault of why my eyes are like this. Pina iyak nya ako! Ng argue kami kanina and it’s all about the money I sent my mom for my little sister’s tuition.

He told me that I hurt him raw. Kasi di nga raw kami gumagastos sa bahay then we send money pa in the philippines. Tumutulong nga lng raw kami sa mommy namin pero di raw sa kanya. Eh, ngtaasan na ng boses, I let him finish his issue, and paulit ulit na lang niya sinasabi na hurt sya sa ginawa ko. Jealous na jealous sya na isang salita lng ng mom ko raw, bumibigay na ako. Eh ako na man, umiiyak from holding my anger and voice. Every time my dad pops up a word. I really wanted to interfer him and speak for my behalf. He also added that my mom’s family can sustain the needs of my little sister. I was just thinking “what about me, am I not my mom’s family? Eh anak nya ako and I’m the oldest.” Sabi nya pa, hindi ko raw responsibilidad na mg padala ng pera. Pero “can I just ignore my mom when I know that they need it badly?” I don’t want to be a bad daughter, especialy in my situation right now that both have their own seperate lives. Was it my fault that I was born in this crazy situation. “Hindi!” I didn’t intend to choose on what side I will support. Because I will support no one but myself.

Nang natapos sya sa kadadakdadk. sabi ko sa kanay…

“Di nga kami gumagastos sa loob ng bahay. Pero wasn’t it enough pa ba ung mga treats na binibigay namin sa inyo? Kahit di nga kami ngbibigay ng pera pang tulong sa gastosin sa bahay, eh kahit papaano we also pay the restaurant bills, the tips, and we even quality time we spent when ever we have time to bond with the family. Wasn’t it enough, yet? Eh sa mom ko which is in the philippines, I can’t give her quality time coz malayo ako sa kanya, tulong sa gastusin nila doon is the only way I could do in not ignoring my mom. One thing, I even started to pay my own school tuition because nahihiya na ako sa inyo na kayo pa ang ng babayad kahit alam ko na marami na kayong binabayaran. That’s why I take that responsibility. Even it is hard to go to school and work at he same time, I try to handle it. Even sometimes I just want to stay home and have a family bonding yet I have to work so that I could pay my tuition. Inaako ko na nga ung responsibilidad sa aking sarili regarding finance that I have.”

I really thought that he sees what I am doing to compensiate him. Na tumutulong rin ako. That I don’t have any favoritism between my parents. Eto nga I am planning pa nga to buy a full spa gift certificate for his birthday and for this coming fathers day. What do you think, am I a bad daughter?

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The girl is now a lady

hmmmmmm.. comment.. comment..comment.. i think this is a great picture to post. hehe.. it looks like somebodies twin..  well, i just love it. it is soooo asian

 

spring preparation

Thing are getting crowded in my room and i have to give up some stuff that i used to use and have. I also need some new things in my room and in my self too.

The List:

• sort out some papers in the folders and envelopes and shred the irrelevant ones.
• pack the winter cloths, coats, jackets, etc… and store it in the attic.
• sort out cloths that i don’t wear anymore and toss it in the balikbayan box.
• take all the spring/summer cloths and dresses out from the storage bin and hang it in the closet.
• bedding’s must be in floral designs and colors.
• take the old books out from the shelves, and replace it with new books.
• take out the bags that i would use for the season.
• take all the junks out from my room.
• i kind of need a small table so, buy a small table.

and for my self, i think i need a hair cut.. just thinking though. i don’t want to cry when they are cutting my hair. I love my long hair, but sometimes i was thinking about cutting it shoulder level. its summer and it is going to be hot. that is still an errand so, I’m not yet sure. hmmmm.. what else could i think of?

i guess, learn more about how to make refreshments… i like halo-halo. hehehe. if i could only make the ones that are served in the restaurants. the ones with a little alcohol.. that would be great.!

Is this what the new generation is now?

I really don’t know why things happen in this generation. Minor Kids are involved in this brutal act that beats up a sixteen year old girl. I mean minor, ages around 14-17 or 18.

There were 6 girls that beats up the 16 year old honor student, Victoria Lindsey, and 2 boys which is the looks out. This was happened last March 30, 2008. When i saw the clip in an online news, thoughts were just rushing in my mind. This cheerleaders are so brutal, punching and slapping this girl non-stop in half an hour long. I really don’t know what the argument is but things like this is so outrageous. If they think that they are cheerleaders, so what?! Its not because they are the popular in their school then they could do things like this in there own way. They invite this sixteen year old girl, VVictoria Lindsey,  to come over in this house, and just been shouted, and make her as a punching bag, which is not right. Five camera’s are rolling while they are beating the shit out of this 16 year old girl, Lindsey. What are they really thinking? It’s not like they are making a sex scandal that they could humiliate the 16 year old girl to the whole world. But then guess what, those 8 bullies got there own life time of fame. Their faces are all aroundthe web, news, articles, etc… After beating Lindsey, this bullies drove and left her, face is busted and with a lot of injury from head to toe, in an unknown area. And with that, that is kidnapping. I don’t know how long Lindsay was been missing after that incident but seriously this 8 kids just gone out their boundaries. They though that they are minors and they won’t be charge and they could just get away that easily. Hell NO! They were charge of kidnapping, battery, assault, unlawful imprisonment, etc… only one out of the 8 bullies was charge with a juvenile imprisonment, and the rest are all in adult charges with potentially twenty years life imprisonment. Well, they have to be serve of what they really want. They did it, then that’s is what they get. Those bullies should learn something by now of how life really is. Life is not a game. They should suffer in it.

Here is the clip, it only runs 3 minutes but how much more if this is the actual 30 minutes long clip that took out from their actual camera’s. You decide it for yourself.

http://www.tbo.com/video/xml/MGBT19QIREF.html

Dinner ala Italiano

I just got my tax refund and my salary “yeppeee” , so i thought of giving my family a dinner outside. It is a nice weather tonight and everything seems to be in a good mood. So, my step mom called my dad to come home early. My dad can’t believe that the dinner will be on me. It is only once in a life time that I am in my good mood.

I first pay my monthly payments, credit card, phone bills, etc… just to make sure that i have sufficient fund for the treat. My sister then decided to go for A but when we got there it is already full house. People are already waiting outside to be seated. the waiting runs thirty minutes, and so we decided to go to the city and have dinner in a vietmanes restaurant. It is the restaurant that I and my sister went when we are so hungry and don’t know where to eat. I like it there though. It is really like a typical Asian restaurant. It’s customs are almost alike in my country which is the Philippines. They got this tropical fruit shakes, which I really like and the food, goodness gracious, it’s really delicious. But then when we came in the restaurant the waiter said that they were already close. So, went to the italiano restaurant along the Little Italy neighborhood in Canal Street.

The ambiance is great and the servers gave us such a hospitality. The food, it’s OK, too. While eating my sister brought this stuff that she will be a billionaire some time down the lane. And I think it is a good character of her. She said “whatever word that came out from your mouth, will come to you”. In her case she’s been blabbing that she is going to have a lot of money. She’ll build a house that have an indoor pool, which is for my dad. oh yeah and she is telling me that she will not let me put on foot on her house because of me teasing her. Well, I was JUST laughing. and things and thing just get into it’s place.

While eating I just felt that I was like snorkeling under the sea. My food is tremendously salty. I was asking my Tita which is the expensive type of food in my plate. Then she said that all the sea foods that is on my plate are all expensive, especially the lobster. I ate the whole sea foods and left the pasta soak into a bed of salt sauce. It’s is obvious that the pasta is the cheaper one :D.

Went home with full stomach. And I’m not anxious of how much i spend. I’m was just thinking if everyone had a great time. with the smile on their faces, and all the moments of laughter’s and smile that each one have, it is priceless.

What blessing i had in this week I surely be lovely to share it to the people that i love. If Iam happy  I want everyone to be happy too.

Heart Experiement

 The Heart. Don’t think it’s a human heart but a sheep heart. It’s just the same as in human heart. The Experiment in the laboratory is to dissect a sheep heart and here we are taking pictures of the dissected  heart.

The ventricles of the sheep heart is obviously visible. You can see the left and right ventricle, the aorta, the inter-ventricular septum muscle, the myocardium, and pulmonary trunk.

It’s the posterior half of the sheep heart.

 

 

This is the other half of the heart. There is the auricle, the tricuspid valve, the cordenae tendenae, trabeculae carneae, the papillary muscle, the myocardium, and the inter-atrial septum.

This is the anterior half of the heart.

 

 

The dissectors. Michelle, me, and Coney.

After cutting the heart we try to locate our pulse and listen to each others heart beat. We even tried locating the atrial systole and the ventricular systole. its called auscultation- listening to something inside the body.

 I guess even we are having fun in our laboratory experiment we knew something when the get done with everything.